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I hear so often of our generation (and the ones behind us millenials) and how we disengage. Into video games, our phones, TVs, computers, etc. It is a complaint I’ve heard towards us, towards me and hell I’ve even slung it toward others.
As I get older and progress in my career and studies I am noticing more and more the incessant negativity, that most often comes from folks older than myself. A generation in the mentor stage of life that seems to be hell bent on breaking my kneecaps whenever I turn a corner.
Granted, I do have loving and nurturing awesome mentors, thank the Universe for all of them. Unfortunately as often as my clients thank me or we experience a breakthrough together or a mentor slaps me on the back with an “attaboy” or I get an A on a paper—there unfortunately is a deluge of snarky, angry, disappointment.
I know I have a vast amount of things to learn. I’ve also experienced a tremendous amount of trauma so I try hard not to sweat the small shit and need to be mindful that these things aren’t so small to others.
I thought if I lived a mindful life without judgement that all of this would be beyond me. Problem is no matter how far removed I am, it would seem I’m pulled into it. I don’t feel I have the right to judge others, so I’m then almost devastated when others judge me.
So what do I do? Anticipate every possible thing? That’s impossible.
So then I will do my best of what’s asked of me. Then people feel I’m not proactive enough and then my job, professionalism and work ethic come into question.
I don’t live in a world if absolutes. This is causing me problems.
Professional development is nigh. I’m taking it head on. I just wish folks would hold themselves to the standards they hold for me. I wish folks would be nicer and put more positive energy into the world than negative.
I wish those that came before me would take an opportunity for mentorship instead of trying to burn me in some grief effigy that has nothing to so with me but instead their own vicarious trauma. Then perhaps I wouldn’t disengage.
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"Be at peace with your own soul, then heaven and earth will be at peace with you. | Enter eagerly into the treasure house that is within you, and you will see the things that are in heaven.” – Saint Isaac of Nineveh
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Drove down to Irvine today with my wife. We listened to Sarah and Vinnie Podcast and the new Eminem album. She listened to a Britney mix cd and I suffered through it. Took me the entire day to realize this is what life is really all about. It isn’t about the praise at work, how much money we make, how many degrees we have or any numerous things we post on social media. Life is about living, loving, friends and family. So, I’m glad I’m down here doing all of that and I’m sorry to my wife for being a stressed out pill most of the ride down.
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We kinda forgive you for bathing us…thanks for putting the heater on and for the clean beds! #bulldawgz #bulldogs #englishbulldogs #frenchbulldogs #frenchies
#pigeons #delnorte #bart #richmond #elcerrito #eastbay #contracosta #bayarea #california
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